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Thursday, June 16th, 2005
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10:24 pm - Holy Crap.
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I forgot I had a Blurty! Oh well...
What's happened? Lots of things have happened, but nothing that anyone would think is interesting or important. I just ate ice cream. Mark that down!
Oh and I saw the President on Tuesday! Well, I didn't actually see him, more like his entourage drove past my lab. He was on campus to give a speech and the lab is on the road that leads from campus to the airport.
Yeah. That's it.
current mood:  sleepy
current music: Foo Fighters: "In Your Honor"
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| Monday, May 23rd, 2005
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8:29 pm - Umm...
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Not too much to say lately, which explains the lack of updates. I recently got a MySpace account, and realized it's more fun to post random notes than to sit down and type out the goings-on of an entire day. Besides, my days aren't usually too exciting.
I know the whole point of this was for me to be able to tell Dana about my day when we can't talk to each other. They're always the saaaaaaaaaame, though... I jog, shower, go to work, do some stuff, help everyone with their stuff, go home, eat and work out, shower, watch tv/play guitar/do some work, then go to bed. Yeah. Maybe I'll save that so I can copy and paste it every day.
What do you think about that?
current mood:  bored
current music: QOTSA: "Lullabies to Paralyze"
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| Saturday, May 7th, 2005
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3:40 pm - Updates? What updates?
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Yeah, I don't really post on my Blurty journal all that often anymore. Why not? I don't know. Mostly b/c I don't remember to. I also don't have anything very exciting going on in my life that warrants a description here. I'm a mostly boring guy.
I haven't been paying enough attention to Dana, and I know it. Yes, I'm feeling guilty. Last night I went out with some co-workers and was too tired to hear the phone when Dana called. I want to call her now, but I know she needs her rest. *sigh* Should I wake her up? I don't think she'd get mad, but still... I think I'll let her sleep. She works hard and has finals coming up (I think!) so she needs her rest.
I love her so much... even if I don't do the things I should to show her how much I care, Dana means more to me than anything in the world.
If you read this, I love you, honey...
current mood:  full
current music: Weezer: "Make Believe"
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| Saturday, April 30th, 2005
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12:47 pm - Moody
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I've been pretty moody lately. I know I'm a moody person, but since I've been taking my medicine last year, it's been under control. This past week hit me with tons of bad news and huge setbacks and my whole demeanor changed. It's still changed. I find myself not wanting to go out of my apartment so that I won't have to talk to anyone. Elisa is mad at me, I've been rude to Dana... I've been nasty to Dana more than once this week. I know she understands, but I still feel bad about it. Ugh. I need to go on vacation or something.
current mood:  moody
current music: Shadows Fall: "The War Within"
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| Monday, April 18th, 2005
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7:21 pm
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You don't stay with a wounded man, you move forward. Otherwise, everyone would be looking for a wounded man to stay with.
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7:17 pm - Not Feeling Well
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I haven't been feeling well for the past few days... probably since Thursday. I've been real tired and worn out, especially in the afternoons. I slept for about two hours when I got home today, and don't really feel like doing much else this evening. I wonder if I'm not eating well enough or if my mono is popping up again? Maybe I should take better care of myself.
I wish Dana was here to take care of me. I can take care of everything but myself, it seems and I know Dana would be great at looking after me.
I love you, Dana.
current mood: exhausted
current music: In Flames: "Soundtrack to Your Escape"
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| Saturday, April 2nd, 2005
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11:21 am - The Cage of Trials and Difficulty
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Like a lot of other people, I've been tracking the Pope's health on CNN. Some analyst on now said that the Pope is currently in the "Cage of Trials and Difficulty". No wonder the dude's so sick! He's 84 years old and they're making him participate in a cage match? Get him some Gatorade or a Power Bar or something!
Okay, all kidding aside, let's hope his impending death is as painless and peaceful as possible.
It's raining outside... time for me to take my full belly and empty balls and take a nap. Who says you need to be married to live with one tank full and the other empty? Heh.
current mood: full
current music: QOTSA: "Rated R"
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| Thursday, March 24th, 2005
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6:57 am - If You're Not Knowin', I'm Here to Let You Know
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BUY LULLABIES TO PARALYZE BY QOTSA NOW!!!
DON'T ASK WHY, DON'T THINK ABOUT IT, JUST DO IT!!!
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6:55 am - Out of Curiosity
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If your name was Ash Fister would you think about having it changed?
I got new strings for my guitars yesterday and they seem to be pretty nice so far. They're more expensive than my usual strings, but feel real nice and are handmade (DR Strings 11-50 for my dropped-C tuned guitar, 10-46 for my Eb tuned guitar).
Okay, got to talk to Dana for a little bit yesterday, but not long enough... I miss her. She'll be back in a few days, but I still miss talking to her before I go to sleep...
I love you, baby!
current mood:  nervous
current music: QOTSA: "Lullabies to Paralyze"
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| Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
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9:59 am - Walk Smiling and Carry a Stick... Any Stick
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Last night I went for a walk as it was getting dark. The weather has been getting a lot nicer so I've been trying to get out some more lately. Unfortunately, with my work schedule and sunset around 6:30 PM, it's hard for me to go out for any exercise in full daylight. I was on the bike path that winds around behind my apartment complex and dusk had fully set in. I could see roughly 100 feet ahead of me and make out shadows and shapes beyond that, but my clarity suffered due to the darkness. As I walked listening to one of the new CDs I bought yesterday, I saw what looked like a woman in a white jumpsuit approaching me. She was carrying something, but I couldn't tell what it was. We came closer on the path and I decided that this person was, indeed, a woman and she was carrying a rifle... no wait, a stick. Or a branch... an oddly shaped branch she must have picked up during her walk--a walking stick maybe?
It's my habit to say hello or wave to people I pass while I'm jogging or walking on these bike paths--I never know when I might get in trouble (i.e. broken leg, twisted ankle, bear attack) and need the help of one of my fellow pathmates. As I looked to say hello to this woman, she had a smile on her face I can only describe as "not quite right", insane even. She was smiling and swaying her head back and forth, looking up at the sky and making all sorts of weird noises. Hmmm... the people I meet. Not really much else to my story, just wanted to share that with everyone.
I got to talk to Dana a bit last night. She's spending Spring Break at a friend's house, but ventured into town for a bit so she called. (There's no cell phone service at her friend's house.) We talked for about 15 minutes or so. It was nice to hear her voice after not talking to her for a couple of days. I really miss her; I don't really think about it too much when she's at home, b/c we talk on a semi-regular basis (when she's not working or at school), but now that I can't talk to her, I notice that I miss her. I'm trying to keep this updated as best I can while she's gone so that she can read everything I've been up to this week.
I'm going to see my parents on Friday for Easter. I'll be home until Sunday afternoon. Thought I'd throw that in there.
Took my car in to get looked at today, and I'm waiting (impatiently) for the technician to call and let me know what's wrong and how much money they're going to bleed from this stone. Yeah that was tits... totally tits.
Dana if you're out there, I miss you and I love you! Hurry home!
current mood:  hungry
current music: Strapping Young Lad: "Alien"
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| Monday, March 21st, 2005
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7:59 am - My Bed is My Best Friend
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Man I'm sleepy. My stomach is upset, too. I know what's causing my tiredness and upset stomach, and I've planned on eliminating them from the picture; it's just waiting for the current episodes to end that's bothering me. Hopefully I can go home early today and get some sleep. Watching what I eat will remedy my stomach.
Guh, I feel like crap and the day just started!!! There are at least 8 hours of questions and nagging and problems ahead of me... make it go away!
Dana is at a friend's house for Spring Break all this week. I'm going to miss her... we don't talk as much as we used to, but that's not all bad. Sure, it would be great to talk to her everyday, but this way it makes the time we have together more valuable. At least to me, anyway.
Alrighty, I hope she's okay and that I get to talk to her later. I really need to curl up under my covers and snuggle with her... one day we will, I'm certain of it!
I love you, Dana--hope you're dreaming sweet dreams.
current mood: sick
current music: In Flames: "Reroute to Remain"
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| Sunday, March 20th, 2005
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11:31 am - Which Saved by the Bell Character Are You?
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| Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
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11:36 am - Mailing the Bills
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I've noticed something kind of funny when I pay my bills. The envelopes that came with the bill used to have a place for the stamp that said "PLACE STAMP HERE". Recently I've taken note of a "disturbing" development in the production of envelopes for bill mailing. Instead of the rather firm and direct "PLACE STAMP HERE" a rather obnoxious "Post Office Will Not Deliver Mail Without Proper Postage" is starting to appear on the upper right corner of these envelopes. Why is this obnoxious? Think about it. If you added the word "the" to the beginning and added a period, you'd have a complete sentence. Does it really take a complete sentence to get Mongo the Juggling Wonder Monkey to remember to put a stamp on the credit card bill with which he bought a buttload of bananas? Methinks not. The other thing that strikes me as funny is this: I can picture someone saying "PLACE STAMP HERE" and pointing to the box in the upper right corner with a finger. In the second case, I can see some smart ass saying "Oh, you can mail it without a stamp if you want, but just try to get it past the mailman. Go on try it," as he folds his arms over his chest and gives me his best LoQuanda From the Hood head groove. POST OFFICE WILL NOT DELIVER MAIL WITHOUT PROPER POSTAGE, BUT IF YOU WANT TO TRY, GO AHEAD. NO ONE'S STOPPING YOU; LIVE DANGEROUSLY, LEAVE OFF THE STAMP.
*sigh* I really need to find something more substantial than this to fill my mind.
current mood:  weird
current music: Black Label Society: "Mafia"
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| Sunday, March 6th, 2005
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1:43 pm - If You're Not Knowing, I'm Here to Let You Know
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You all need to buy the new QOTSA album when it comes out on March 22nd. You must... brainwashing you I am.
Dana, wake up, I'm Yoda-talking already!!! Love you I do.... mmmm hmmm hmmm hmmmm hmmmm... MINE!
I just opened up my copy of The Lion King. My parents got it for me in Christmas in 2003. I also have a VHS version of Fantasia 2000 that my parents got me in... yep 2000 and I've never opened it. Gotta watch my Dukes of Hazzard Season One DVDs, too! Get 'im Roscoe, ooh goo goo gooo!
current mood: crazy
current music: Watching "The Lion King"
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| Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
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10:54 pm - Not the Diary of a Mad Black Woman
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More like a nerdy white dude. I should turn this into a "blog" and start some kind of news information page. I should, but I won't.
Flash looks so peaceful... kinda hovering over one of this tank decorations. Staring down the can of bloodworms, waiting for me to feed him again. Only been here two weeks and already such a pig!
I love you, Dana.
current mood: sleepy
current music: Desert Sessions 9/10: "I See You Hearing Me/I Heart Disco"
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| Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005
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9:48 pm - Please, Nurse...
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For a woman with a dead fetus on her head, you're not being very open minded. Mmmkay?
Dana called earlier to ask me about her classes. She wanted to drop some of the classes she's taking this semester; I kind of went a little hard on her. I guess I just want her to succeed and do well and have opportunities for herself when she graduates. Anyway, I'm sure Dana is doing what's best for her, and that's what matters. What's best for her is fine by me... whatever she chooses to do, I'll support her decision.
Because I love her... now when she gets home, she had better make me a sandwich!!! >:-O
current mood: disappointed
current music: Judas Priest: "Angel of Retribution"
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5:43 pm - Antfestation and the Edgar Allan Poe Longcoat
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Let's get right to it. The other morning I woke up to find an ant colony on my bathroom floor. A little Raid and a good vacuuming took care of it. I have no idea where the ants are coming from or what they were so interested in on my bathroom floor, but I hope they stay out of my bathroom.
I went to Barnes & Noble today to get a book (duh) and saw a vampire reading through the graphic novels, wearing a leather longcoat with Edgar Allan Poe's portrait airbrushed on the back. Good thing I carry garlic and a cross with me at all times.
That's it, time to eat. Where's Dana? I wanna shoot the shit a bit.
current mood: hungry
current music: QOTSA: "Lullabies to Paralyze"
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| Sunday, February 27th, 2005
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2:32 pm - It Eats!
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Flash ate today! He won't eat betta pellets, just worms. I'm going to go up to the store later (if I feel like it) and see what kind of betta worms they have.
I took a friend of mine to the hospital this morning b/c she had pretty bad hives on her legs and back. The doctor told her to take benadryl... hopefully it gets better. I can't handle taking care of her anymore!
K, time to... I don't know what. But I'm going to make time for something!
current mood: tired
current music: QOTSA: "Songs for the Deaf"
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| Saturday, February 26th, 2005
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2:35 pm - New Fish!
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Toasty passed away the evening of 2.22.05. On Wednesday afternoon, I bought a new fish. Not as a replacement to Toasty, but as a... new fish lol. He's a red betta (a baby!) and his name is Flash. He likes to swim but doesn't like to eat very much. I'm going to send Dana some pictures of him later today (if I remember). He's so active!
current mood: bored
current music: Darkest Hour: "Hidden Hands of a Sadist Nation"
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2:23 pm - How I Know
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Dana lives in Hawaii. We've never met in person: our entire relationship has been conducted via the internet and telephone. I'm deeply in love with her, though, and yesterday provided another reminder of how much I love her.
I was at work late last night. I went home to grab some dinner around 5:30 and went back to the lab for 6:30 or so. I had forgotten my cell phone at home, so when I checked it there were several missed calls and a few voice mails, one of each from Dana. She had also sent me a text message saying "My mom is picking me up, disregard the voice message" or something along those lines.
I checked the message after I had returned to work. The voice on the other end was definitely Dana, and she didn't sound happy, but the reception had been poor and what was left was just pieces of her words coming through the line. I heard enough to know that she had locked her keys in her car and was upset enough to be crying.
My heart sank. Right then I wanted to run to her, to help Dana feel better--help her get in her car, get her safely to school and on with the day. Something super-heroic like that. I know I can't possibly do that, but still. It's times like that when I realize how much I love Dana and how much I want to help her and be here for her. Sure, there are plenty of other girls that catch my eye, but Dana is the one I want to talk to, the one I want to care for... the one I want to go home to at night.
I hope she knows how much I love her.
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